Being the Better Person... or Trying at Least

The internet is at 271 kb/s down... I'm so happy right now. I been working out with Haskell and Bohl, and where to most that isn't a big deal and where I might not even be doing much, I'm doing more than I was before. I'm trying at least. I'm tired. I'm unsure how my classes are going to end, probably in academic probation.

I'll try, but motivation to do work that I don't understand is in low supply. I'm just waiting for next semester when I can get into my business classes. That right now is the only thing that keeps me going.

I have 2 assignments due by Friday, one I have done, theoretically. The other... well, I dunno, I guess I just get together with some other people that need help too and hopefully I can get through it in time. And on top of that I have a research essay that needs doing also... I'm lost. Time management is screwing me over, I should have been more diligent in the beginning.

The past is past. Only the present and future hold any meaning now. Time to get ready for Bible Study....

Stoking the Fire of Hatred

Sometimes I wake up and want to see everyone in sight burned or hanged or shot. Today wasn't one of those days, but for no reason at all its warping into one of those. My classes were cancelled, I've had breakfast and lunch and neither were too bad. I am just angry, and it keeps building. I have this urge to say goodbye to a few people, step into my car, and disappear. The last time I felt this way was in high school, every day I would pass the freeway on the way to school and on the way home and I always wanted to turn my car onto the interstate and jet away.

I've already talked to my old man about next summer and it looks like I'm gonna be driving that truck again. I knew I wouldn't get away from it. But looking back, it was the best money I could make. And I'll have an extra month to make a little more this time, and I'll have a better idea of how much money I should be holding onto for the school year.

I like being able to refrain from a job during the school year so as I can have more time for homework if it was necessary. And driving allows me to do that.

Thanksgiving was good, lots of family was around. Good food and such, the drive was long though. I can't wait for Christmas but I figure I'll get bored being there for that long of a time frame.

Relationships are the friggin devil, you always wonder what that other person is doing after its over. Occupies your thoughts all the time, and then if you like someone you are always wondering what they are doing, and then that is whats occupying your mind, or both at once... relationships are just a friggin nightmare.

Friggin a... I'm bored...

Cell Number

I wake up every morning, and I soon as my eyes open and adjust I'm staring at this cell phone number on my whiteboard, should I call it?