Desperate....

I had so little sleep last night...

I slept for stints of like 5 to 10 minutes... 5 to 10 minutes of nightmare... I gave up after about 2 hours and then after my alarm went off I slept for about 40 minutes of solid dreamless sleep.

And then I drove back to Portland. I could have let Dan drive I suppose but than what would I have done?

I need sleep so badly but it's like I forgot how... I'll lay down but I won't sleep... I just think...

And I've had enough time to think... I'm so... tired, sorry, confused, scared, depressed, anxious...

Fear overshadows the rest... and I'm scared spitless.